Life's Changes

I figured it's a big day today, or well this week maybe... I figured I should post so I don't forget my thoughts and feelings today. At 1:30pm Eric will be at the airport waiting for his grandmother's plane to land. She's moving up here! I honestly can't wait, I hope she doesn't mind the cold! I like having grandparents, I haven't had one in almost 19 years. I like older family, they have been around and have seen so much I can't help but to look up to them with honor and pride.

Another big thing, I have a job interview for Citizen's Bank on Monday the 2nd! I can't wait! I haven't been on a job interview in years and part of me (really deep down inside) wants to just stay in this crappy job just so I don't have to go on this interview! YUCK! I don't even know if my cloths still fit, I actually meant to try them on last night and totally forgot!

We're going to Providence on Friday night to go see a Techno band at Lupo's then they are going to drop me off at my mom's and then they'll go home, I'm staying for Becca's scrapbooking gettogether on Saturday! then either I'll take the bus home on Saturday night or Eric will come and get me... haven't figured that one out yet! ummm maybe I should do that soon.

oh yeah my coffee tastes like crap, just thought to let you know.

My September Secret

I suck at blogging so I decided to do monthly secrets not weekly... I hate lying to you.

No wonder I have no readers!

I am such a slacker when it comes to blogging, it's amazing how many blogs I got going out there... I got three right here! I actually found a different blog site (hang head in shame) called Vox but I can't post there from work so it kinda sucks but I think I'm going to use it as a storage place, to make things easier for me.

I am now a student... it only took 8 1/2 years but I am back in school taking classes and learning things. I started with a photography and drawing 1 class. I like my photography class... I like it a lot. We shot our first roll of film and processed it so I can see the pictures on my negatives! Next monday when I go in to class we will print a contact sheet and find our favorite print out of our roll... I then have to print it and make two more prints, one high contrast and one low. I'm not really sure how to do that part yet! Now my Drawing 1 class, don't get me wrong I love it.. I really love being able to be creative and the 2 hour class twice a week flies by so quickly! But it's a lot harder. I've never taken an actual art/drawing class before and other than my little alien doodle guy I don't have the hand drawing skills... my teacher says maybe not naturally but it'll come to me in time. I currently have 4 drawings on the board and we were informed during class last night that if we have a drawing on the board we get an A on it. I'm not sure if I got 4 A's or if I just got one in marker/newsprint natury studies... now we're doing bottles and learning how to measure... that's not fun!

We went and saw CSNY at Mohegan Casino a few weeks ago now... it was so much fun! So glad we went, even though we spent close to $50 in the slot machines! Well Eric did... he's bad! I went with 20 bucks and left with 20 bucks... so I was happy!

Secrets....

I've decided to share one secret every week... maybe I'll share more if I'm moved to... I can't promise anything. I came up with this idea from one of my favorite sites to go to http://postsecret.blogspot.com/ it's a great, weird, questionable site... but I can't not go to it every week! I wish it was updated more than once week! So here is my secret for the week....

There is nothing in the world that I truely enjoy eatting.

We didn't cry......

Yesterday I had the privlige of going to David's Bridal with my friend Jenny and her mom and we went dress shopping for her for her wedding next year. Since I got my dress on ebay I never went dress shopping... I was going to go with my mom and sisters but since they live in Rhode Island we just didn't get time and then I found my dress on ebay... and that was it, I had my dress, no need to go and try on dresses I know I'm not going to buy. So we spend 4 hours (roughly) at the place and she's trying on this one and that one... I found one I loved and wished I had gotten married in it! She finally narrows it down to one (or two) and we go to look at dresses for me and the other girls... well I'm trying on a dress and showing it off to Jenny and we hear AWWWWWW blubber blubber blubber... we look around the corner and this girl is BAWLING standing there with a wedding gown on... we look at her, look at each other and then back again at her and smile... turn around and go back to trying on bridesmaid dresses.... when we left the store Jenny asked me, did you cry when you tried on your dress and I said no, I felt really pretty but I wasn't moved to tears... she said good I was afraid I was supposed to cry!

are we supposed to cry? Are Jenny and I the few exceptions, the weird ones?

Day 20, I've cheated.....

And so has my husband! I can't believe it's been 20 days already, it's amazing really that it's been that long, and even though we're cheating we're not smoking nearly as many as we used to! For a week or so I had some trouble remembering to take my welbutrin but i've been doing good lately (the last few days)... I think this weekend I'm gonna go for none at all and see how things go, with Eric being home by himself he's been smoking to many during the day... yesterday he smoked more than half a pack which is just WAY to much! So we need to fix that or he'll just go back!

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9 days... 9 long days...

So my mind is filled with smoking... it's all I can think about. And it's amazing because I don't feel the need for a smoke... but I can't stop thinking about the damm thing, I want one, I don't need one... I just want one. This weekend was not very good for me, I can definatly see a difference, you see last week I kept screwing up on my welbutrin... I'd take it in the morning, but not at night or vice versa... well now 3 days of being good, morning and night and I don't have a craving for a smoke, except this mental need to have one! ERRRRRR

So my nephew is coming up on the bus today, he's staying through the week and we'll bring him to the party on Saturday and my sister will pick him up there... it should be a fun week, he's only 12 but he's my buddy, I used to take him everywhere when he was a toddler, at the time I was working at Chuck E. Cheese's so I would go in all the time with him and get free tokens and he would have a ball playing the games and going in the little rides and on the playscape thing they got... he can't wait to get in our pool! lol SO my sister who dropped him off for the bus (Bonanza bus line providence to Hartford) gave her this release form that she is required to sign since he is a minor... the biggest thing, if the desinated person isn't at the bus station within 15 mins of the bus arriving in Hartford a social worker will take my nephew into custody until a parent is able to get him... WOW! So Danielle had to show id (photo copied) and sign this release form and the ticket booth kept a copy... then she had to give the bus driver the release form and he had to sign it and give a copy to my sister... then when they get into hartford Eric will have to show ID and sign the release form, the bus driver gets a copy and hopefully Eric does... this is something we NEED to scrapbook! LOL I asked do they also want urine, blood and hair samples? I mean it's good, the bus driver will walk Ryan off the bus... he sits right behind the bus driver... it's all for security measures so you can't complain THAT MUCH but wow we were all just a bit shocked over the extent!